A wrestle with Ego to be free

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Oxfords Definition:

The definition of Ego by Oxford University is a simple statement and is based in Plato's "The Cave" and based on the Adam and Eve Story in the Bible, These stories and others are used as analogy for our Biological Human Condition.  NOTE: The Biological side is short sited as you will see shortly.

The suffering psychological upset is the price we humans had to pay for our heroic search for understanding.  "In search of the heavenly dream" we have to be prepared to march into Hell to find a Heavenly dream.  We have to lose ourselves to find ourselves.  We are to suffer becoming egocentric until we gained knowledge to explain our human condition.  On the mental mind psychological side, we had to develop it over time (not true, we are placed into the human condition that is preset for an experience on earth).  These academies say we have lived with developing this human condition for some 2 million years and we are just now at a point of understanding.  Our human condition is not a bad evil state but a heroic state of existence.  It is our egocentric behavior that is destroying us.  our knowledge over eons means we go from living in trauma of the human condition to living free.  We have now learned to not be self-destructive in the nick of time.  As we become conscious of these things, we become loving, Edenic and moral.  Basically, Oxford has said we are moving from instinctual beings to conscious beings.  Is this true?  No!  People are less knowing today than 100 years ago.  Oxford gives us the "conscious intellectual explanation" that we are wrong to think we are competitive and aggressive since we are savage animals.  This is Oxfords idea of "instinct vs intellect".  

These academies state the Conscious Mind is the greatest invention.

Ego became centered on the need to justify itself.  Ego and Intellect are the same these academies say.  

This concept of intelligence and Ego is off center enough to lead you on a wrong path of understanding.  This is how Ego works; it is smart and sly.  

Intellect is not Ego, but Ego is an intelligence.  Mind is like a computer hard drive.   Intellect is that knowledge held by Source.  Ego is a fabric of the Mind and produced by the mind to override Source Intellect with Egos own smart brain - the mind.

When you get this stuff correct, the changes in your life begin immediately and are not illusory or temporary.  

Oxford's definition of Ego basically is a play to satisfy Ego with a story that it is not good or bad.  Ego actually is corrosive and destructive every time.

Ego is alive and well in your conscious mind.  

Ego is an Intelligence, but it is not total or The Intelligence.  As an Intelligence Ego has freedoms that Beings and Entities do not experience.  These freedoms of Ego allow for a wide array of options and extremely liberal set of parameters as Ego works through your entire physical Human Conditional Form.  Ego, as an Intelligence, is very smart and fully capable to influence and work every aspect of this Dimension for what it tells you, "I Ego am intelligence and work to your Benefit, so worship me for I know everything you need to have here on Earth.:"

The Reality of Ego is a battle with Self.  Ego will go to war at the drop of anything.   Ego intertwines with the Devil himself and the whole of Darkness' powers.  This war produces within you, and I mean deeply within the core of you or your Spirit a Guilt.  This Ego produced Guilt is separation from yourself, your Divine Self that came here from Divine Source to live a moment on Earth.  

Now Ego has something to play with.  Guilt!  Guilt produces Judgement.  Judgement requires Forgiveness and Ego never Forgives.  You are locked on Ego's Hamster wheel.  This cyclical illusion is not sustainable over time and does commit you to your self-destruction.  Ego is a killer in every sense. 

With this basis of what Ego is and it's purpose, to kill you, no you can look out and see Human interactions as they really are, self-destructive and destroying those loved ones closest.

When attempting to move beyond my Human Condition, Ego did EVERYTHING to stop me.  

As you move past the Human Condition Ego suffers a form of Death.  Ego ceases to be relevant in your life and will fight you or cause you to go into conflict with yourself.  Honestly it does not matter what or where or who Ego is.  Just know it is a separate intelligence working you while in the Human Condition.  

STORY TIME

Ego is a Devine Intelligence!  

Ture Story-- One day that soon turned to evening an elderly man was talking with a younger man near an airport runway.  The elderly man lived lifetimes of experience in one life.  Fought wars, cared for the sick, ministered to the dying, raised children, marriages and more, much more.  This elderly man had suffered as well terrible things in his life no other had experienced.  Death surrounded and took this elderly man several times and something snatched the elderly man from deaths clutches each time.  The elderly man explained and instructed the young man on many things for the sake and benefit of the young man answering questions as to the nature of life and things.  The young man was captivated for hours listening and asking questions while chatting with this Sage of Age.   During the conversation as it came to a close, the elderly man just said a simple line.  "I have darkness in my heart and I can't seem to get rid of it.  This darkness in my heart stays and never is it altered no matter what I have done to remove it".  The young man was bewildered by that statement as the elderly man stated he needed to act on this and do something.  The conversation ended.  

It was not two days and the young man had broke his neck in a accident.  As if the very things revealed to the young man were taboo subjects of Darkness and how it played in each persons life, the tricks, antidotes and what to look out for in other humans, entities and beings.  It took the young man months to recover which the young man did and his life was forever changed from that night into his future, though, he may to this day still not know or understand this. 

The elderly man drove home that night his 1 hour drive from where these two had met.  He reflected about his past and concerned he would die and take Darkness with him into the next life.  The elderly man did not want death to capture him with this Darkness in his heart.  

Next day, with no planning the elderly man met another man he barely knew, had an encounter with one or two times of no consequence.  The elderly man struck up a conversation with this stranger and not knowing why blurted out, "I have Darkness in my heart and I don't know how to get it out?".    Immediately the stranger reached for the elderly mans hand as like a reaction to swatting a fly landing on you and with the other hand over this elderly heart said a quick prayer in the strangers own language.  

Over the next 30 days the elderly mans heart seamed to have hands reworking the heart, like weaving a new tapestry.  The Darkness was no longer noticeable.    

Then Ego showed up.  Not in a friendly way.  The elderly man noticed Ego was always moving out of view and going behind to hide and attract negative dark things towards the elderly man.

This elderly man had lived many lives in one life.  Fought wars, died and come back, seen the other side and much more that he will not speak of.  This elderly man is real and he was introduced as to how and why this world works as it does with the humans on it.    Even with all this direct knowledge and experience and having been their and done that, his Ego was fighting him in a death match not allowing him to be free to explore Divine things.  

The elderly man finally stopped Ego, grabbed it, and pulled it right in front of him.  Egi appeared as a bulldog, a living thing, more than a energy or idea or part of the psychology.  Ego plays the Human Psychology. Ego had form, intelligence, and strength of will.  It was an awesome thing to face.  Both troubling and infuriating.   So, the elderly man held Ego and with help nailed it to the ground, muzzled and chained it, and did not allow Ego to move one inch.  Ego was set off to his right side so he could always see Ego and being on the right side gave Ego its place of respect and standing.    

Ego, he discovered, was influencing an aspect of the Elderly man with Ego intertwining into the Elderly man's Human Form.  Ego having shaped itself over the years for the elderly man's survival.    The elderly man's decision to move towards a heart centered life threatened Ego.  Ego was reacting as though it was going to die and was fighting for its life with all means necessary.  Even employing Darkness.  There were no limits Ego would have stopped at.  Ego was facing it's own death as it knew it.  You see, the elderly man was changing and evolving in Divine Love and Ego was threatened.    Once the elderly man arrested Ego, the elderly man was able to continue his journey into his heart where he then was able to meet up with Darkness.  

By this time it was discovered Ego was using Darkness to empower and control the elderly man.  Now it was time to come to terms with Darkness.  As time went on Ego learned it would not die, but change, and improve and, in time, became friends with the elderly man.  Ego now sits next to, on the right side of, and against the right leg of the elderly man purring as a kitten in the body of a Lion.  It is happy beyond happy and in love with the elderly man.  Whenever the elderly man thinks of Ego he pets Ego who purrs back sweetness and delight in having such a wonderful companion.  

Ego is not stupid, Ego will come to rest, but you must Master Darkness to do this.

As time progressed Ego became less of a presence in the elderly man's life and has since nearly moved on to other opportunities.  

Ego has to be tamed my friend. Ego is tamed in a different manner than Darkness and Ego must be tamed FIRST.  For it is Ego that will twist and turn your psychology in ways that makes you emperor for a day and a prisoner at night.  

STORY TIME  

This is from another person and their bought with Ego.  During a conversation with the elderly man, a sincere women of high intelligence asked questions in challenging ways.  As if to Challenge the elderly man and what he could do.  She must have been from Missouri for everything was "show me" first before I believe.  The Master confronted her with her Ego and after some explanations left her to think about things.  This is what occurred next.     

July 31, 2021 Questions to Ego Wanna have some fun? Who are you? 

I am part of you, part of the Divine, part of earthly existence. You need me. You really need me… 

Why do I need you? 

I am your protector, your conscience, your force-field, your shield from all humanly things. I do this for you, as you, as part of you.  

Can I get through life without you? 

You could, but you can’t separate from me. I’m along for the humanly ride.  

Have you been with me through many lifetimes, or do I get a new ego/you every time? 

Aw c’mon, that isn't’ fair. I’m here now, isn’t that all that matters? 

No, really, I want to know. Were you with me in Greece? 

Shhh… yeah I was. 

And in China for those 900 years – 

geez, I thought you’d never give up that body. Ok, I was there in Japan, too. I really worked with you there. Then, in San Francisco – remember how much you needed me to succeed? I was there, holding you up, putting things in place for you, making you successful. It was me – ego – me, me, me. I did those things for you. 

Cool. So what are we doing together now? 

If I told you that, you’d kill me. Haha. Your mother made a deal with me. You were too small to remember. So far, I’ve kept my end of the bargain. 

Well, Ego, she’s been dead for almost 50 years. I’d say you’re free of your obligation, wouldn’t you? You worked with Pride and Shame and Vanity and Integrity, too. You guys were like a tag team. She must have made a deal with all of you. So… what are we doing now? 

I’m making it look like I’m protecting you. That’s what you want, isn’t it? 

On some level, it would be nice. But since you just admitted you’re making it look like your protecting and not really protecting me…. That begs the question – why do I need you at all? This fake it till you make it shouldn’t be your game. Trying to distract me won’t help. It won’t get you out of it. Tell me what you’re doing or we’re doing together.  

Hmmm… I’m preparing you for the next level. 

What level? Here on earth or afterwards? If you’ve been with me for thousands of years, shouldn’t you have succeeded by now? 

I am part of you. There is no success or failure. 

Ok, duh. Well, I love you for being with me, for doing what you think needed to be done. I love you for defending me – even against myself.  That’s a start.  I know you’re there when all the tough times got even tougher. And you’re there when all my seeming victories happened. But what is your role? 

I munch up all your energy whether it be from success or failure and hand it back to you disguised as self-confidence and worth. Really, you neeeeed me. 

Oh , you’re the reason I’m so tired! Haha How about you sit in the caboose and I take the wheel for awhile? I’d love you even more if you did that. 

Not sure I can do that… I am you, remember? 

Oh yes, I remember. And, since you are me, I get to make changes. I’m pressing a different button on the radio now. I love you and I set you free from your obligation to my mother, your obligation to me. You can stay or go. Ego, you need to find peace with that. Really? 

I’m free? I want to hang around, if you don’t mind. I’ve been with you forever you know. 

You have to hush now, and let me go on without you. No more chatting in my ear. No more trying to control every emotion and mood. 

Shhhh…  Just like that?  

Well, you want me to love myself, right? Isn’t that what you’re all about? 

Actually, I use fear more than love, but that’s another story. 

Yeah, I get that. You’re pretty good at it, too. Always telling me “bad things will happen if I don’t allow ego to show up and protect me.” I hear you. All too familiar. It’s my turn now. I don’t need to be afraid. You did your job, and I love you for it. Now sit back there and be quiet.