suicide is - looking for that last exit

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I will speak plainly. This is Deaths Door with no return to once was. The suicide takes with them all that emptiness to the other side. It is not a way out, but a way into a hell that is not expressible and not dischargeable once in the realms. 

There is a different jurisdiction that Suicide is attributed to. The outcome for that one is dependent on factors that are only known within the jurisdiction of the other side. 

This produces what are called Curses for generations to follow. What is a ancestral curse? It is in some way laid onto perhaps one in the generations to follow who could break the curse. This can be done. 

The purpose of this website is a way was found to break destructive cycles.

First of all, the serious suicider cannot connect to anyone. The reasons a varied, yet the outcome is the same.

What was seen on Earth are entities and energies that are highly intelligent. What is seen in the Human as a reflection of these energies and entities who are basically void of Love. It feels like being consumed with a idea. It's all a ploy and a game of illusions. Thus, the home page picture of Charlie Chaplan caught in his own hall of mirrors, is what happens to you when you are in any type of toxicity which acts as a Love Repellent. 

A letter from someone – maybe you will get something from it

January 19, 2023

Email: Anonymous

Thank you for sharing your experiences and your wisdom. I hope that you may be able to answer some questions that weigh heavily upon my heart. Please and thank you.

Aa I said, I am preparing for my death. After a lifetime of mastering darkness, death is what I am most looking forward to. I am the most blessed human alive, but, more than anything, I want to be completely free. I love my life, but when I am no longer contributing positive or neutral energy to the collective consciousness, I will end my suffering myself. It's my life, my death, and my choice. My knowing is that I AM a sovereign being, I am in control of my life, and I have the right to choose to be free from pain and suffering without negative consequences and curses.

It makes no sense that in this universe of Love, I (or any of my future generations) would be "cursed for centuries" because I made the choice to free myself from suffering.

The truth is that most people are committing slow suicide every day with what they choose to eat, drink, think, and inject. I don't understand how ending one's life in an instant brings negative consequences, but dying slowly is free of consequences and curses.

Why is suicide as bad as you say? That's some heavy stuff you have written about and as fear-inducing as burning in hell for eternity. My knowing is that all fear and negativity around the act of suicide is intended to keep people alive, suffering, and feeding satanic/regressive forces that have enslaved humanity. I refuse to feed the beast system.

How can the choice to end a life of suffering and free others to live their lives instead of watching me suffer and die be as bad as you say?

What other choices that I thought I was free to make, should I know about? Particularly those with massive karmic consequences. 

My response is not all her questions - just the issue of suicide:

Suicide

Of all choices the one that ranks highest on the self-centered selfish scale is suicide. I know. I did it. My choice brought me back. As for hell I do know there is a place so dark and empty and void. As though Love itself left. Where I felt nothing and the torture of that I wished to be extinguished.

I don’t talk anyone out of suicide. If you want it, it’s your choice. It is a choice.

Freedom to choose is all we have. We are not free beings though and this concept is super intense.

Life is a bitch slap. It forces out of us choice. 

For the last 18 months I have begged God to let me go. I talk to him on a two-way active god field. 

Why is this body suffering yet I have all this knowing and I am not heard. What’s the point I’m overkill and I’m useless at the same time. I go into my 8th surgery in a couple weeks. Cancer then a plane crash and over a year in bed. I could easily beat you out the exit portal of self-inflicted drug assisted suicide and I qualify in some places for state funding.

My body my choice

I hear that with abortion too

Self-mutilation

Gender identity and so on.

We’re here for experiences.

If suicide is one of them, I am no one to say anything.

I did it. I just know what I found.

Who knows maybe you’ll find God and be happy in divinity?

Or maybe that’s not how divinity works.

There are two ways to find out.

Like a song from the Clash

Should I stay or should I go

So I lay in bed

Cancer

Broken leg

Broken back

Broken heart

My kids taken by the women who destroyed my world. A story living in maui that has no beauty in it

All my friends took everything and never spoke to me again.

So living in a trailer

I should grab a knife and get it over with

But in that

I found divinity

I share it best I can

Love in me far exceeds anything im at issue with

My heart I covenanted to divine love

My free will covenanted to The Father Of All Life

Love makes the big decisions

I do not have the wisdom to make those. So I stay here and for the several hundred I have helped. I will see them again. And for the thousands im going to help. It will help the world.

I have a friend.

His wife died.

I talked to him.

Despair is all I saw.

Told him about nine months he would die naturally. He shot himself the next day.

I spoke to his two daughters as they wiped the brains off the wall. What say did they have. His body his choice. It is a true concept. It is a concept that can serve light or dark

I have mastered suicide. I have the jurisdiction to speak this way. In no means will I do sway you. It is truly your choice, made by you, alone and with self-will, minus Divine Love and Fathers blessing. So where will that take you?

I know where’s it took me. But maybe your will be different. Right?

A women last week wanted to talk to a friend on the other side. His name was John. He came forward and we chatted. Here questions were what was it like there. He explained as best he could but was confused as to her intent. She said she wanted to know so she had something to look forward to when she wrapped her stuff up here like her job and animals and stuff. I mediate saw her choosing her exit from her through assisted suicide. John saw it too and he backed off and wanting to leave. She asked if he would be there to greet her and he said he did not know that sorta thing belongs to one’s who have jurisdiction over suicide and he and others there have nothing to do with it. He wanted to leave so I said go now and I turned to her and said.

Don’t ever take your suicidal ideations ro those living in there divinity. They are separate from that. I said more but that is enough you get the idea

I have given a very clear explanation to your query. Let’s see what Ego has to say reacting to this

As for Molokai

It is a wonderful place. Where I was connected to Divine Love

We’re I participated in Freeing the darkness from Kalaupapa

If I had succeeded

I never would have met Keahi

I never would have seen darkness leave Kalaupapa I never would have seen darkness leave Kalaupapa

I never would have freed darkness from the palace in Williamsburg VA the beginning of Americas nightmares.

Interesting world we live in

Free will can do good and evil.

And we can live and say good and evil does not really exist. 

But at least for here it does exist.